Life Updates

So Jim is coming to see me next week. I honestly can't wait. I dream about him, miss him, run home to get on the internet to talk to him every day. It's strange how a little bit of affection can make me realize how lonely my life was before him. I have so many emotions about him that it's a little scary sometimes. I've never let myself be connected to someone like this. He completely blows my mind and rocks my world. Not to mention that I find him incredibly attractive. I'm fascinated by him and he completes me in a way I didn't know was possible before. I found that I wasn't attracted to Chris tonight because I was all about Jim. So even if it doesn't work out, at least that will be an EXCELLENT thing that comes from this. Oh, and he's good in bed. *smiles*

Other news...My Dad is now home. I have talked to him. He is safe. It was great to talk to him and its as if these great dams broke and I could cry all of my tears about him leaving. It was quite a lot...nine months worth of tears. Now that they are all out I feel relieved. A big piece of my world is right again.

I've been working on a new song. I really like it and it's appropriate to a lot of people. Nick has it posted in his blog. But I'll put it here too for those of you who don't know Nick.

Ridiculous

What am I supposed to do?

Lie awake missing you?
That's Ridiculous
That's Ridiculous
What am I supposed to say?
That I can't make it another day?
That's Ridiculous
That's Ridiculous
How and I supposed to act?
Like I'm dying to take you back?
That's Ridiculous
That's Ridiculous
So go ahead and play your games
I don't give a damn anyway
It's Ridiculous
Yes, It's Ridiculous
Take a thousand steps through time
Back to when you were mine
And the pain starts to flow
So I cut it off at the source
I don't want to feel remorse
cuz that's Ridiculous

Body Clock Alarm

I've been trying to get in to do my laundry for the past couple of days now and I finally managed it this morning. You would think with the washing machine being across the hall from me I'd be able to wash clothes more often but that just isn't true. Maybe I should take one of these that I've been goofing off and wash my damn clothes. *laughs*

Anyway, the school girl experiment was a sucess and I've decided it's a go for next week. I will try to get some sort of pictures up on the net for those of you would like to see practicing being kinky. *grins* Not that I need practice. It was a very wonderful experience. I had a very pretty woman call me sexy in it and it totally made me feel wonderful. Not to mention every guy I knew who had been slightly attracted to me before was now determined to get up my skirt....as I of course did not wear panties. It's experiences like this that show me that curvy chicks got it going on...good thing I'm curvy.

So I'm awake this early why you might ask if you know me? It's because my body doesn't realize the difference between a weekday and a weekend. So I am awake at 10 on a Sunday morning and I wish I could get a few more hours of sleep but I know it just won't happen so I'm trying to satisfy myself by other means.

It's a matter of three days now....three days until I see him. I really can't wait. I want to fall asleep in his arms so much, but that's after hours of great sex. *smiles* Yes, it will be great....and no, I can't wait for that either. *sigh* Somehow I managed to fall for this guy...but he's different. He's nice and cares about me...doesn't treat me like crap and thinks I'm worth going insane for...what more could I ask?