Selfishness

I had a big reality check today....thank you to the person who gave me the newest blog to read. Because of your words I realized that I am not as good of a friend as I think I am. Now before everyone tunes out, I defend myself by saying this will not be a ramble of self-depreciation. Instead this is an apology.

To every single one of my friends that I have neglected, recently and not so recently, I'm sorry. I realize that I tout my ability to communicate but don't actually do it very well. Often times I think that I have suggested some idea would be fun but not committed myself to it but to other people my interest was perceived as a promise...and sometimes I'm just unreliable. I can't promise that I will stop doing it. I don't even realize I do it most of the time and I never mean for it to hurt people.

I am extremely self-centered and have brainwashed myself into not noticing. I'm sorry to all of you that I keep attempting to win over to my warped view of the world in which I am important to everyone else's existence and then neglect my responsibility. Please, when I start to slip, help me back up and let me know that I'm hurting your feelings...I truly am oblivious.