Life Updates

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So Jim is coming to see me next week. I honestly can't wait. I dream about him, miss him, run home to get on the internet to talk to him every day. It's strange how a little bit of affection can make me realize how lonely my life was before him. I have so many emotions about him that it's a little scary sometimes. I've never let myself be connected to someone like this. He completely blows my mind and rocks my world. Not to mention that I find him incredibly attractive. I'm fascinated by him and he completes me in a way I didn't know was possible before. I found that I wasn't attracted to Chris tonight because I was all about Jim. So even if it doesn't work out, at least that will be an EXCELLENT thing that comes from this. Oh, and he's good in bed. *smiles*

Other news...My Dad is now home. I have talked to him. He is safe. It was great to talk to him and its as if these great dams broke and I could cry all of my tears about him leaving. It was quite a lot...nine months worth of tears. Now that they are all out I feel relieved. A big piece of my world is right again.

I've been working on a new song. I really like it and it's appropriate to a lot of people. Nick has it posted in his blog. But I'll put it here too for those of you who don't know Nick.

Ridiculous

What am I supposed to do?

Lie awake missing you?
That's Ridiculous
That's Ridiculous
What am I supposed to say?
That I can't make it another day?
That's Ridiculous
That's Ridiculous
How and I supposed to act?
Like I'm dying to take you back?
That's Ridiculous
That's Ridiculous
So go ahead and play your games
I don't give a damn anyway
It's Ridiculous
Yes, It's Ridiculous
Take a thousand steps through time
Back to when you were mine
And the pain starts to flow
So I cut it off at the source
I don't want to feel remorse
cuz that's Ridiculous