Alone....

I hate this...I feel like everyone else has disappeared from my life. I'm so alone. And every time I like a guy who seems to be nice or that I'm actually sexually attracted to things go wrong...completely wrong. What is it about me that makes me incapable of establishing healthy relationships? I love Ames. She makes me sooo happy but I feel like we live in different worlds and barely ever get to overlap and that drives me crazy. And there are no men in my life who are serious with me here. Whenever I'm attracted to a guy I pretty much know that I should just walk away. *sigh* Someday I'm going to be the woman that men realize would be wonderful to be with...but til then I'll just be broken time and again by these wastes of time.