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It seems like everyone I loved before college is coming to call...Corey sent me an email telling me he's deployed...which made me extremely happy and extremely upset at the same time. I was happy to hear from him but upset that he's deployed. It sort of rocked me to the core to think of him possibly dying. I'm not ready to deal with that just yet.
I started talking to my ex-fiance on line again. That makes me a little nervous. I want to make sure he knows I'm doing ok but I don't want to sound vindictive or bitchy. I did love this guy for a really long time before he jumped all over my heart and literally destroyed it. *SIGH* That's the way the cookie crumbles I suppose....
Plus I am happier now than I ever was then...there's nothing like coming to college where I can have a real dating life to remind me how little I wanted to be married to a man who understood so little about me. But it still hurts to think that he could have been the only chance I have...of course I know that there will be others but what if none of them are interested in a life partnership? But it can be argued that he wasn't either....ahhh decisions decisions....
I started talking to my ex-fiance on line again. That makes me a little nervous. I want to make sure he knows I'm doing ok but I don't want to sound vindictive or bitchy. I did love this guy for a really long time before he jumped all over my heart and literally destroyed it. *SIGH* That's the way the cookie crumbles I suppose....
Plus I am happier now than I ever was then...there's nothing like coming to college where I can have a real dating life to remind me how little I wanted to be married to a man who understood so little about me. But it still hurts to think that he could have been the only chance I have...of course I know that there will be others but what if none of them are interested in a life partnership? But it can be argued that he wasn't either....ahhh decisions decisions....
