eiblyn | Update

I realized that I hadn't posted in a bit so I thought I should catch everyone up. My parents are not going to be able to visit this summer due to the fact that everyone in my family is getting sick at the same time and they have to take care of everything else. Add to that the Democratic National Convention and I really think it best if no one visits me from out of state for my birthday this year. Sorry if that comes as short notice to some.

My favorite co-workers last day was today. She starts her new semester on Monday. It's going to be really sad without her. She's a blast and totally hilarious. Not to mention the fact that she is my sole constant companionship to and from work. She will be sorely missed but we have traded emails in hopes that we might be able to get together and do something later on.

The first month of my journal entries for my internship are due next week. They are not finished, of course, but well enough on their way that I should be able to catch up before Wednesday and email them all out.

Went on a date last night for Italian food. The service sucked but the food wasn't half bad. The conversation was probably a bit too intense for the evening and a poor choice of topics on my part. *sighs* I just seem to be stuck in worry mode lately. I can't seem to figure out why I'm so stressed out about things...well, I know but I don't really think this is the time or place to air my concerns/insecurities/feelings of inadequacies/jealousies. I should let them settle into more intelligible gripes rather than the blind bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. It's hard to explain that you're not happy because sadness is gnawing away at the core of you and make any sort of real sense out of things.

I think part of my unbalance is due to the fact that I have not set up my Guardians here and have not created a sacred space for myself. I really should do that as I think it would help me stay more grounded.