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[eiblyn]

I've been updating this so sporadically. I have things I want to say, I can just never seem to find the time to sit down and get it all out. So I'm going to just write one huge post with everything I've wanted to say for the last week and a half or so. I'll even include some organization and an lj cut. Don't I just rock the socks!

• Job
  I decided that taking on the full time job right now is just not a good thing for me. I'm tired most of the time and I know that the feelings I've been having lately with elvnsword leaving soon are just going to get worse. Also, I know that I'm not going to want to go back to work after the baby is born for a bit and it is really not fair to the kid I would be working with. Nothing like depending on an adult and having them bail. I'm taking the next three weeks off from substituting too so I can do stuff with elvnsword and deal with him leaving.
  
  
• Deployment
  elvnsword leaves in less than a month. He is off for the next two weeks and we are planning to spend as much of it together as we can. We're going on three trips with the USO to see stuff in Germany. He's also going to doctor's appointments with me and we planned plenty of time to just relax. I might see about taking him swimming as I know that relaxes him and he really enjoys that.
  
  
• Baby
  We bought a crib and high chair last weekend. I'm really starting to doubt I'm going to have a baby shower at all. All of the women who said they would organize it are not going to be here anymore. They all leave in the next few months. So I'm starting to slowly acquire the things I'll need. My mom and grandma bought me four dozen cloth diapers that are washed, folded and waiting on a baby butt. We got a stroller for free that is incredibly nice. I'm going to wait and buy a carseat after elvnsword starts getting more money for being away. I am planning on going to the PX and buying some baby clothes as they are on sale this month and I know I will need more clothes than I want to think about for the Tadpole. I have my first ultrasound this coming Thursday. I'm both nervous and excited. I can't wait to see it swimming in there and stuff. elvnsword gets to go with me since it's scheduled during his two weeks of off time.
  
  
• Relaxation
  We've been spending lots of time just hanging out. I've started re-reading some books that were influential earlier in my life. We've started going out more. Mom and I went to the Farmer's Market this last week. I picked up a few plants that I had let die in the last few weeks :-(. I've been having a bit of some trouble with depression. It is coming home much more now that elvnsword is leaving. It's also coming home that my entire life as I know it is going to change over the next six months. It's terrifying and very depressing. Today was a good day though. We took Black to the airport to go see his family. We went to downtown Heidelberg. Each of us picked out a new tea to try and I bought a teapot. It is the first teapot I've owned. I have two kettles, but hadn't gotten a teapot yet. This one is red clay and has a clay filter that goes with it. The filter worked great on the loose leaf tea we bought. We also bought some dark glass bottles. I've been wanting to experiment with making tinctures and that gives me a good place to store them. We just had a grand time.
  

Now I'm going to read some more. Blessings to you all.

Comments

[heartnut.livejournal.com]

Just wanted to let you know that I'm excited for you and baby, sad with you that your husband is going away, and here for you if you need someone to talk to, though it may take awhile for me to answer.

[eiblyn.livejournal.com]

Thanks. Sometimes it gets really lonely here because I have a hard time relating to a lot of the people here. I appreciate people who take the time to let me know they care and are listening. I keep meaning to get a postcard and send it your way, but they don't seem to make postcards of Mannheim. I'll just have to pick a different one.