Pursuing New Interests

[eiblyn]

Ok...so something I don't understand is how I deal with men and women differently. Why is it that I am attracted to numerous women at the same time and pursue numerous women at the same time I might add...but I seem to only be attracted to one man. I'm not sure I like that. I mean, yes, I see other men as attractive but I have no desire to pursue them. Maybe it is still NRE...But I do know that I haven't slept with a man other than Jim since Thanksgiving. And I haven't had intercourse with a man except xuth since Halloween. But I have been in sexual encounters with three women since I've met xuth on various occasions.

What is it in me that seems to only want to be with one man but to want to be with many women? Is it some trace of society's attempts to convince me monogamy is the way to go? Or is it that I am simply more attracted to women? Which I don't think is necessarily true. Is it my social programming? What could possibly make me feel like it's ok to with numerous women but I'm only supposed to be with one man?

Maybe I'm over analyzing this. Comments are requested from the observers.

Comments

[rms-butterfly.livejournal.com]

Hi!

My two-cents? Over analyzing. It's ok to deal w/men and women differently, or to have only one of one sort and many of the other. As long as you and your loves are honest with each other and to yourselves, what you feel comfortable is ok. :-) And, NRE could definately be a part here, esp since you are only able to see Xuth occasionally.

And, I think it's great you're going to the March in April! I'm going, too. :-) The Planned Parenthood of Central OH is taking a bus and I have my seat booked.

*hugs*
'berta