Back in Berea...

I'm back in Berea. Struggling to finish my program that I highly suspect will be turned in late. I have databases homework too that I didn't even realize was due today until literally seconds ago. I have to take a shower and then go move my car to student parking. I'm going in to work at 9am and working until 11:30am so that I can start making up hours. *sighs* Welcome back dear. I am going to be trying my best to get caught up in my classes and raise my grades. Part of me thinks I need to hermit and focus but realistically, I'm already pretty hermitted. I got nominated for the history honor society. That really makes me happy. Anyway, I need to start my shower so I can get my car moved around 8:30am. Bright blessings for everyone...especially some of you that are on my mind because you need it more than others right now.

And so...

It rained today. Not at all warm. Thanks Boston for sending the weather home with me...appreciate it. Really.

I realized today that I have the potential to completely fuck up my graduation. Fortunately the CS prof pointed out that I can take certain TEC classes and get credit towards my minor. I'm currently hoping that my HIS independent study will get crosslisted for WS credit also so that I can take any of the stupid classes on Christianity that I least despise rather than having to take a specific one. Everyone wish me luck on that because the only other option has me dreaming wistfully of that time that used to be called lunch.

I think I found my renewed motivation. Apparently it was hiding behind midterms that scared the crap out of me and peanutbutter with honey. I will now work on my program due Wednesday for about an hour then I will get out my tarot deck and explore the new book I've got and see if it increases the depth that I perceive.

My foray into the world last week just reminded me how much harder I have to work to prove myself. I will improve my GPA. I will get into graduate school and I will become successful. So there...

And life will improve. Plans will be made. Lives will be shifted. The world will continue turning on its axis and my feet will remember the steps to this dance called life.

*yawns sleepily*

So I really should be finishing up my program but it's 11pm and I'm bushed. I've been working on code for the vast majority of the time I've been home since 5pm. I want someone to come and cuddle with me. I want to be completely caught up on everything I need/want to do. I'm sleepy. I'm cranky. I've had good tea though and I should think about heading on to bed now. So much for finishing things up.