Reality Check...

So I realized something vitally important to my future today. I am not ready for a PhD program. Hook, line and sinker that's the bottom line. I'm feeling a tightness in my chest that I highly suspect is anxiety waiting to just rain down all over my world. Part of me is very terrified...but the logical part of me is already planning to get into a Master's program. It was just really abrupt today to be forced to that conclusion. My GPA may get me into a Master's program...but it won't get me into a PhD program. I really was not enthused by either of the history departments I talked to in the last two days. But we'll plan for the PhD when we get there. For now, I need to explore my Master's options and determine where I go from here.