Today

Today I wanted to go on a date...so I made one. Today I got invited to a party I wanted to go to...but I couldn't. Today I skipped out on work because I didn't feel like faking being happy for a day. Today I woke up alone again. Today I'm hungry and haven't eaten yet.

*sigh* I'm still feeling down and depressed and so I'm sorry for all of those people who have to hang out with me. I haven't been actively acting depressed though...that seems to be something I don't do well...it makes me think I'm being an imposition or that people won't want to hang out with me if I'm not happy. I know it's dumb but that doesn't make it any less what I think.

Almost a date...

I had made plans to go on a date but then I was standing at the corner of Washington St. and State St. when I realized I didn't have my cell phone. And I was lost. So that means I had to track down a pay phone. After tracking it down I had to pass a message thru J to H to M so that he didn't spend forever waiting on me. I still haven't eaten and I probably should do that but bluntly I'm not hungry at the moment.