Jealousy

The nature of jealousy is hard to define in and of itself. It's the emotion we each dread to feel knowing that the burn in our stomachs is always more than the pizza. I have noticed that the more I seem to feel no connection to a lover the easier it is for me to become jealous. This may seem contradictory but when I am secure in my emotion than I believe that it is infalliable. As long as I am in love with you I will believe that you are in love with me. But when I stop being emotionally attached I begin to look at your actions differently. I believe everyone doubts at least once in their life the sincerity of a lover when they tell you that you are beautiful...otherwise I wouldn't feel the need to do it either. Why would I need to question something that makes me a more complete person? A person who can deal with the ups and downs and disappointments in life. Without this ability to avoid jealousy I could not go through watching others thrive while I lived my blessed life.