Benet

I met benet last night. I like him. He is very intelligent and I enjoyed caring on a conversation with him. He had good opinions and was very impressive. I can very much see why sweetmusic27 loves him....not that I could ever love him. He's so not my type as far as for my personal preference. He's cute and I would sleep with him but I don't think I would want a relationship with him...which is why it's good he isn't dating me. *laughs*

Secretly I think I do size up the lovers of my lovers to see what they find attractive about them. It's not so much insecurity as curiousity. I am very curious about what makes people attracted to each other. I think I might be a little insecurity about my abilities/lack of abilities when it comes to sex. I try to be very focused on my partner...it doesn't always work out that way and the more people involved the more difficult it is for me. I think I need to work on this comparison factor. It does me no good to be constantly comparing myself to other people because I will either have my self-confidence undermined or I will become conceited. There will always be someone better than me and there will always be someone worse than me. I think I just need to realize that people like me for who I am, not how I measure up.