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Con Confusion
Oct. 30th, 2003 11:03 pmSo I attended my first con and it was a very unique experience. Ames and I broke up...I think it's actually working out better now that there's no pressure to see each other. Not that we saw each other that much before. What can I say? I missed her terribly and eventually I stopped letting that hurt me because it hurt sooo much all the time. And when I start not letting myself feel something before I know it I'm not sure what I feel about the person, if anything.
I started dating Amanda today. That makes me happy. There's just something about her that makes my soul glow. She makes me feel beautiful all the time and I just always feel happy around her. That's not love, I know, but it definitely is nothing to scoff at.
I have been spending a lot of time with Nick. He's fantastic. I love him deeply as the semi-domestic partner that I am and I appreciate him. I'm really sad that he's been so down lately. I hope that he finds someone who realizes how great he is and then convinces him of it. He's such a wonderful person and it kills me to see him hurting.
Julie...Julie...Julie. Wow. I don't know quite what to say about her. I like her a lot as a person and I enjoy hanging out with her most of the time. I say most of the time because there comes a point in time when EVERYONE annoys me. I know she wants to be involved with me and I'm not sure how I feel about that. She's a very sweet person and I enjoy talking to her. Relationships have been built on worse things...especially by me. But I think I will take things slow and see where I end up. I don't want to rush into anything and end up hurting her.
As for Joel...I love him as a person and he's great to be around but I worry about him. I don't think he always makes the best choices in who he hangs out with but I am definitely not the person to point fingers. I have decided to support him in whatever decisions he makes. I will be civil to everyone in the "family" but I refuse to promise to like anyone *grin*. I will be as bitchy as I want to be...I just won't say it out loud. As for his decision to "fix" himself...I truly hope it works because everyone's world is going to hell in a handbasket and it'd be nice for one of us to have things figured out.
I started dating Amanda today. That makes me happy. There's just something about her that makes my soul glow. She makes me feel beautiful all the time and I just always feel happy around her. That's not love, I know, but it definitely is nothing to scoff at.
I have been spending a lot of time with Nick. He's fantastic. I love him deeply as the semi-domestic partner that I am and I appreciate him. I'm really sad that he's been so down lately. I hope that he finds someone who realizes how great he is and then convinces him of it. He's such a wonderful person and it kills me to see him hurting.
Julie...Julie...Julie. Wow. I don't know quite what to say about her. I like her a lot as a person and I enjoy hanging out with her most of the time. I say most of the time because there comes a point in time when EVERYONE annoys me. I know she wants to be involved with me and I'm not sure how I feel about that. She's a very sweet person and I enjoy talking to her. Relationships have been built on worse things...especially by me. But I think I will take things slow and see where I end up. I don't want to rush into anything and end up hurting her.
As for Joel...I love him as a person and he's great to be around but I worry about him. I don't think he always makes the best choices in who he hangs out with but I am definitely not the person to point fingers. I have decided to support him in whatever decisions he makes. I will be civil to everyone in the "family" but I refuse to promise to like anyone *grin*. I will be as bitchy as I want to be...I just won't say it out loud. As for his decision to "fix" himself...I truly hope it works because everyone's world is going to hell in a handbasket and it'd be nice for one of us to have things figured out.
