Musical Frustration

[eiblyn]

So I skipped work and class so that I could go work on music with Chris yesterday. I knew I shouldn't do it but a lot of times I feel like rebelling against what the college society has decided should be my norm. I went to play the music because I hadn't seen him in two weeks and I knew he was feeling neglected. Not to mention the fact that he realized I'm in love with someone else and that always makes him feel insecure. He should know by now that I'm never going to want to be with him again like I was before and that he has formally entered the Hall of Friendship and is there in his own right. I do get things from being friends with him and so I still am. The problem began when he decided to blow me off to go be with someone else. Now, I could care less if he hangs out with other women, as I discussed above, but I do care a lot when he asks me to change my plans for him then does not follow through. Instead he wanted to move the music stuff until today...except he wasn't there when I showed up so I left him a note to tell him I was really busy with other stuff and that if he wanted to get in touch with me he'd have to work around that. I have fifteen hundred things to do and I don't appreciate being blown off. Blowing me off is pretty much saying that you don't respect me and you don't think my time is important. I know that I'm bad about doing that to other people, but it's different because I don't just completely blow them off...I usually try to let them know and have a reason for it. *sighs* Plus he's not supposed to treat me like that because he's not important enough in my universe for me to keep coming back. I suppose if he wants to be my friend he'll get his shit together and if he doesn't, it's no big loss to me.