Rambling Eco Thoughts

[eiblyn]

I've had a headache all day. I went to Earth Roots and had my face painted, ran a relay race (and won) and have been reading about environmental conservation all day. The more I read the more I realize I really don't want to live in a big city and that I'm not sure I want to worry about a PhD. On some level, I'll be so much happier with a piece of land, a small eco-friendly dwelling and an organic garden. I really want to be vegetarian, most of the time I am anyway, and I don't really want to spend my life striving to own more. It's a cycle I'd rather not get into. Owning things, other than land which I would readily share with like-minded people, isn't really something I strive for. For the last few years I've been living with nothing more than can fit into what is probably 6' x 10' room and most of it is unnecessary and goes unused a lot of the time. Good food, good people, books and access to nature are really the things that make me happy. I don't know where these thoughts are all going. I'm at that point of my college career where I decide what's really important to my future and make serious decisions. I have to really ask myself if I can find contentment in a city....if I can live in a city and be eco-friendly. I have to ask myself how I want to change my life and then go do it. I'm afraid this is probably just the tip of the iceberg. My life can be so much better than it is...and that doesn't mean more stuff, it means finding the things in life that make me genuinely happy and basking in them. I lay in the grass for an hour today...just laid there. It was wonderful. I hope everything starts to make sense again soon.