Age

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It appears that I will never be competent to make my own decisions. I have noticed lately that a majority of the decisions I make about my life have all been questioned by the people who care about me. It is not so much that I make bad decisions, it is apparently that they do not believe I have the life experience to make good decisions. How on earth am I supposed to get life experience if I am not allowed to make my own decisions? Is there some magic wand that waves and I can suddenly know how to take care of myself? Because as far as I know the only way to get better at making good decisions is to make a couple bad ones first. And I've been making a lot of my own decisions for a long while. It amuses me that a large percentage of the people I meet consider me incompetent to function to certain levels because of my age. I have found that it is more what you've done with your life than how long you've been alive that determines your true age. I'd like to think that I've done a fair amount of things in my life to make me not seem as young as I am. I'd like to think that this is a good thing. I try very hard to balance out my natural proclivity towards the mundane, serious nature of life with the light-hearted feelings I want to face the world with. Eventually, I just incorporated a bit of optimism into my normally cynical nature and came up with a swirling confusing mess. But it works for me. I just wish I could get everyone else to realize it works for me.