The Wonders of My Hormones

So I don't really have PMS. Nope, not me. I tend to just get *horribly* emotional WHILE MS'ng. It's not enough for me to have to MS...nope, I have to cry my eyes out, get offended at everything and basically just be a sobbing pathetic for a week. *sighs* It's a wonder people will put up with me at all. I suppose they just don't know any better. But I do tend to make good decisions that are focused on what I need and want in my life. It's as if I start to pay more attention to myself than I do the rest of the time.

I've really been looking to the future a lot lately and I realized today that I need to stop. I need to live my life where I am now and make the best decisions for myself when I get to those decisions and agonizing over them now do me no good. Life will be what it will be. I always know when I make the right or wrong decision in a situation because my life will let me know. If I put myself in the wrong locale, then life will continue to suck and increase in it's sucking until I get off my ass and fix what I did wrong. So, I know I can live through making unwise decisions. I just have to be calm enough to let myself make a decision at all and stop thinking that my life can only happen a certain way. After all, I'm not married to Matthew Cantu, I'm not a mother of two and I'm not a diesel mechanic. These are all things that I've been fairly convinced at other times in my life had to happen. They didn't happen. And my life is still going fine...better in fact. So I need to have more faith in myself that my life will turn out well for me. Now if I can just manage to put thought into action.