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Friends rock...alarm clocks suck. One more day in the neighborhood. I'm exhausted and I feel not so good. Anxiety is back but I'll be damned if I'm staying in the room by myself another day. If I have a panic attack on the way out, I'll sit on the steps and breathe until it's all ok. Therapy is in four days. J is in 2-1/2ish days. This WILL go away because I want my life back.

Dilemnas of the Evening:

• I am unsure of how I'm returning from OVFF Sunday night
  
• my Modern East Asia professor emailed me to suggest I apply for a special scholarship to study in England this summer and I really want to apply but I'm unsure if I could actually go
  
• I have two tests tomorrow and should really be studying for those instead of working
  
• my back is a mass of soreness and unhappiness
  

I believe I am going to go home early, take a shower, and do some of my homework/study for the tests tomorrow as I'm really just mostly goofing off and I can work more time next week when I'm not so stressed out.