I'm so back...

Had first emotional breakdown of semester. I wasn't quite ready for it to happen so soon. Really, I don't normally break down like that so it was quite a shock and difficult to deal with. Kudos to the people who did help.

My allergies are now threatening to cause the inside of my nose to turn inside out. The amount of sneezing I've done simply should not be legal. Ahhh for the air of Massachusetts where nothing I'm allergic to lives.

My room is almost completely organized right now and if I do say so myself it's going to be nice this year. My altar is up and that just makes it feel more like home. It's in front of a window and very comforting. I might even consent to letting adults come into my room...last year you had to wait in the lobby but this year, I'm feeling more confident that I will be able to entertain.

I have my first therapy appointment today in three months. It's going to be nice to talk to Ellen again but I think I'm going to just fall to pieces. I suppose that's ok because she cares...even though she gets paid to do this. It took me a long time to actually believe that, about 8 months of talking about random things that really weren't that important to my overall psyche. I know now that she is genuine though.

*le sigh*

So I had to drop my fibers arts class today. It made me really sad because that's the one class I was looking forward to this semester. But, I did pick up the comp sci class with no problems and the book for it was lots cheaper. *shrugs* It worked out ok I guess. I can't find one of my German notebooks which really bums me out but a new one will only run me about $30. So far the most stressful thing that I have been unable to find is my CD case with every musical CD I own as well as the software CD for my printer. I'm still hoping it will turn up but realistically, I'm pretty sure someone swipped it.

Everything is almost set up in our room and ready for the hectic school year. I'm running away to Cinci this weekend which will be nice.

Therapy went wonderfully today and I left feeling a lot better about myself. I have grown up so much over the last semester and I'm doing tons better at not making everyone else's issues my issues. Ellen really made me feel good about the decisions I have been making for myself and the way I've been living my life. She's a wonderful therapist.

I have a doc's appointment on Friday to try and see about getting on herbal birth control. I also want to try and get an herbal anti-depressant that I can take around my period because Ellen agrees with me that I seem to have depression linked to my cycle rather than to outside/inside factors.

Class Schedule

In case anyone wants to try and get in touch with me, here's my schedule for the fall semester.


MWF
9am-9:50am GER103
10am-10:50am PED222
3:30pm-4:50pm CSC205

T
9am-9:50am GER103
1pm-2:50pm HIS222

R
1pm-2:50pm HIS222