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Today...in twenty minutes even...I will begin my journey to Boston. All of you out there who have been thinking that I am slowly getting more bitchy the longer it's been since I've gotten laid will all be happy to know that I will not be bitchy when I get back. *grins*
For those of you that don't know...I did a wonderful thing this last week and told Chris no for the first time ever. That's right...he came at me wanting sex and I didn't want him. It was wonderful. He was admiring me and there was no utze in my groin...in fact I was a bit oblivious to it. But then he approached me and I was clear and told him no...I AM FREE!!!! *does the happy dance*
Did I mention I can't wait to get to Boston? My mom told me to be sure and savor the moments we are together. Oh I love my mother. I don't know how it is that she manages to know what I'm thinking but she does. I will be memorizing every second of the next few days so that when I come back and I have to sleep alone again (no offense Jessica) and I cry myself to sleep sometimes...when the loneliness gets to the point where I can't stand it and I feel like my throat is going to close...then I will take these memories out of the box that I will keep them in, unfold them and let them fall over me and make me feel beautiful and wonderful. And then, I will fold them back up, put them back in the box and store them until I need them again. It's so hard living away from him but we all know that this is not like anything I've ever done or experienced before. So everyone wish me luck because this is going to be one hell of a ride.
For those of you that don't know...I did a wonderful thing this last week and told Chris no for the first time ever. That's right...he came at me wanting sex and I didn't want him. It was wonderful. He was admiring me and there was no utze in my groin...in fact I was a bit oblivious to it. But then he approached me and I was clear and told him no...I AM FREE!!!! *does the happy dance*
Did I mention I can't wait to get to Boston? My mom told me to be sure and savor the moments we are together. Oh I love my mother. I don't know how it is that she manages to know what I'm thinking but she does. I will be memorizing every second of the next few days so that when I come back and I have to sleep alone again (no offense Jessica) and I cry myself to sleep sometimes...when the loneliness gets to the point where I can't stand it and I feel like my throat is going to close...then I will take these memories out of the box that I will keep them in, unfold them and let them fall over me and make me feel beautiful and wonderful. And then, I will fold them back up, put them back in the box and store them until I need them again. It's so hard living away from him but we all know that this is not like anything I've ever done or experienced before. So everyone wish me luck because this is going to be one hell of a ride.
