Boxes!!!

I swear if I see one more box I am going to scream. I have done nothing but unpack since I got here and I am so freakin tired of seeing them that I am ready to jump out a window. Ok, so it isn't that bad but my bed has been swallowed by a mountain of clothes. Classes start tomorrow and still no sign of Ames. I miss her so bad. It's driving me insane. I saw Stewart today and I'm not sure how I feel about that. He was nice...as always, but empty. That doesn't surprise me but I don't feel like it's a bad thing because he and I would be better friends than lovers I am sure and pipe dreams are good for no one. So...I am going to stop thinking that I need a billion people to like me and just be happy for a change. Mark it on the calendar.

Wow...

Wow....so I'm going out with James and that's cool. But I'm kinda worried. I never seem to work things out right with nice guys. And James is definitely a nice guy. Saw Chris last night and didn't want to sleep with him. It's a nice change and made me feel really good about myself. There's nothing in the world like knowing that you've finally made good decisions for yourself.

So Ames and I have decided to go serious. We are so mad crazy about each other and I miss her and she misses me...we are going shopping together next weekend and I can't wait. I am so happy that we talked our shit out.

I am actually happy in my relationships for a change. It's lovely...I'm only involved with people who are good for and to me. And it's wonderful. And I think I'm in love with James.