Wednesday Night Post

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So things went pretty well tonight. I have the pagan circle tonight that I'm really looking forward to. I have less than an hour of work left and I am really sleepy. Therapy went well and we're talking about how to establish security in myself instead of others. It's a difficult thing to think about and try to deal with. Classes are going like they always do. I have a test and a quiz on Monday as well as a one page paper due. I haven't touched my reading for women's studies for class tomorrow so there's a possibility I'll be up all night. I really am looking forward to being done with the women studies department here. I'm really tired of it. And it gets to the point where I can't enjoy life because I'm spending my whole life focused on the negative. Looks like the girls and I are going to go to the Wild Oats in Lexington this weekend and I'm really looking forward to that. It also looks like my gaming session time is going to be screwy *sighs* you do what you can I suppose. I miss J and it's been driving me crazy. Wow is my hair starting to look different. It's been so long since my hair has been this long. I like it and I hate it at the same time...but that's the way it always is in dealing with my hair. My therapist is trying to get me to stop berating myself when I talk (like when I say "This is going to sound stupid..." or "This is going to sound awful...") and just learn to express myself. I started the self-esteem workbook today and I'm supposed to keep with it for the next couple of months and see where that gets me. I'm going to have to figure out how to work therapy into my schedule for the summer. Anyway, that's enough ramble.