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So he called me....I haven't heard from him in a long time and I was almost over him so of course he had to call. At work...no less. And so I got flustered when I heard him on the phone and went down to spend my lunch hour and next thing I know I'm the thing on the menu.
That was all good cuz then I went back to work and didn't see him again until that night. Went to a party and there he was...sex walking...and he was entirely focused on me. I played it a little cool and next thing I know I'm going home with him. And we had an amazing night.
But the next day we rolled over looked at each other and BAM!!!! I fell again. It's horrible to roll over next to him and feel that tug in my heart strings that I know he doesn't feel.
And then to walk away and realize that I only love him when I'm in his arms...that makes me feel horrible. How do you love someone only in the minute? How can I just disconnect like that? it makes no sense and I'm not sure I like myself anymore if I can do that.
That was all good cuz then I went back to work and didn't see him again until that night. Went to a party and there he was...sex walking...and he was entirely focused on me. I played it a little cool and next thing I know I'm going home with him. And we had an amazing night.
But the next day we rolled over looked at each other and BAM!!!! I fell again. It's horrible to roll over next to him and feel that tug in my heart strings that I know he doesn't feel.
And then to walk away and realize that I only love him when I'm in his arms...that makes me feel horrible. How do you love someone only in the minute? How can I just disconnect like that? it makes no sense and I'm not sure I like myself anymore if I can do that.
