Fort Knox Adventures

So I'm going to Ft. Knox on Friday...I'm not sure if that is a good thing or not. But I'm going. And all my exboyfriends are going to be there so it's going to be a little weird. Especially since they all still care about me. I don't want to sleep with any of them so I have to be careful with my flirting. I always did it without thinking before.

This tent party sounds like it's going to suck. It's going to be Matt fucking his new girlfriend and the rest of us just sitting around doing nothing. They want me to bring my guitar but I'm nervous about playing in front of them. I've been writing some new songs and so I am not sure how well they will go over.

Mostly I'm afraid to meet Matt's new girlfriend and for her to be gorgeous. I don't want to think that he is sooo much more happy than I am. I want us to both be happy or both be miserable, or I get to be the happy one. *smile* So maybe I'm selfish.