Further Explanation

[eiblyn]

I posted the quote in my previous entry because I suddenly realized that inside of all the other crap contained in the book I was forced to read (see previous entry which contains the citation) I had found one moment of truth. That one sentence summed up in its entirety how I feel with my struggle over my self-identity. My success or lack there of is something I didn't think was important until I began to disect my feelings and the how's and why's of dealing with other people. I have this level of anger and this intense need to be self-sufficient because I perceive men as being successful and self-sufficient. Somehow I managed to miss all the work that many women put into men and their careers. I have always know that I wanted a career. Bluntly, I'm not sure how it will happen but only that if it does not I will go insane as a housewife. I want more and I will work to get more...and I will struggle to become myself because I can be successful and it won't be tied to my gender if I am.

Comments

[rms-butterfly.livejournal.com]

It sounds like you know what you want, at least in general. In time, you'll decide what exactly you'd like for a career and just how to approach it. (I understand the idea of going insane as a "housewife.") There's no reason to do anything that you don't want to when it comes to choosing your lifepath. It's your life; you'll only travel this particular path once. :-) Good travels and *hugs*.