Today

[eiblyn]

Today I wanted to go on a date...so I made one. Today I got invited to a party I wanted to go to...but I couldn't. Today I skipped out on work because I didn't feel like faking being happy for a day. Today I woke up alone again. Today I'm hungry and haven't eaten yet.

*sigh* I'm still feeling down and depressed and so I'm sorry for all of those people who have to hang out with me. I haven't been actively acting depressed though...that seems to be something I don't do well...it makes me think I'm being an imposition or that people won't want to hang out with me if I'm not happy. I know it's dumb but that doesn't make it any less what I think.

Comments

[rms-butterfly.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I know what you mean; I used to have the same "need" to always be up and happy for fear that people wouldn't like me otherwise. It's ok, though, to feel whatever you feel and to show it however feels appropriate to you, at least around "safe" people.

*hugs* and see you soon!
'berta