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eiblyn ([personal profile] eiblyn) wrote2003-02-08 10:54 pm

War

How exactly am I supposed to deal with my world right now? I am starting a new semester and I'm having to deal with the fact that my Dad is going to war. I stand here and protest with other students....but that's doing nothing. Why do I feel so helpless? This is America....my vote is supposed to matter...even though it doesn't actually pick the President. A President who can't even speak in public...

*Sigh* How am I supposed to deal with the fact that I may never see my father again? We're so close...I was remembering the time he taught me to fly kites like it was just the other day...We tied our kites to fishing poles and ran up and down the driveway for hours. It makes me just want to ball up and cry. But I can't do that because I'm supposed to be a grown-up now....so why do I feel so much like a little kid? I don't have my Mom here to comfort me and no one else really understands here. I worry a lot. I was remembering the way my Dad would wake me up in the mornings for school when I was little....he used to sing this little song that was about my name...